An Ethereal Place I Visited in Dreamland

There was a recurring dream I had as a child that took place in a beautiful, mysterious place unlike anywhere I’ve seen on Earth. I don’t recall many dreams from childhood, but this recurring dream I’m about to recall remains very vivid in my memory.

I cannot remember exactly how many times it happened, but I remember one of the last times I had this dream, when I was around 7 or 8 years old, I woke up with a strange feeling because I knew it wasn’t the first time I had the same exact dream. Although I didn’t exactly consider the idea of interpreting dreams as a young child, I still felt that the dream must have had some significance.

The dream started out the same way every time. My family (which included my mom, my maternal grandmother, my sister, and my brother) and I were in darkness, being led to a door. As the door was opening, I felt a sense of nervousness of what was beyond it. Once the door was opened, we stepped onto a very small platform that was connected to the door, yet the door and the platform were high up in the air with nothing underneath them. Attached to one edge of the platform was a long, winding yellow slide that appeared to go down and further down with no end in sight. I remember standing on the platform next to my family and looking around at this place feeling both amazed and slightly scared because this place looked so unusual. It was a large open space filled with a thick haze/mist that was an intense shade of pink. Here are a couple of pictures that remind me of the pink haze:

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I also remember in the dream, I looked like I was between 4 to 6 years old, and I wore a light pink denim jacket with a yellow star on the sleeve similar to this:


As we stood there, crowded next to each other on that tiny platform high in the air, we knew that we had to go down the slide because going back to the door did not seem like an option for some reason. Part of me felt scared about going down the slide, but I also felt safe having my family next to me. We all sat down at the top of the slide and pushed ourselves down. The first couple seconds were scary, but then I felt exhilarated and was smiling and laughing as we rode down the slide together. That was the end of the dream.

Through the years, I’ve wondered about the possible meaning of that dream. Did I visit another realm/dimension in that dream? Will I ever get to visit that place again, perhaps when my soul leaves this body? If that place does not exist, what did that experience of going down the slide represent?

I once considered the idea that my dream reflects the process of being born into this world. The darkness I saw before the door was opened could be thought of as existence within the mother’s womb. Then like a baby being pushed out of the birth canal, we were led out of the darkness into a strange land/world. The baby is initially terrified once it is outside the mother’s body, but then it seeks comfort through the presence and love of family, just as I felt secure having my family next to me on the platform. Once the baby has been born, it cannot go back to the womb, just as we couldn’t go back through the door. The only option is to go down the sometimes scary and sometimes exhilarating journey of life that appears to wind around and around with no end in sight, just like the infinitely winding slide.

Another interpretation I’ve considered is that the family members who were present in the dream are part of a soul group I’m in, and that experience in the dream was symbolic of our souls leaving the spirit realm to travel to Earth. I’m not so sure about that interpretation, but I like to consider various possibilities.

One thing is for sure, and it’s that I hope the beautiful pink hazy place exists so I can visit it again. Have you visited any unusual or unearthly places in dreamland?


Still Seeking Answers 14 Years Later

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Let us take a moment to remember the people who died on September 11th, 2001. Many people were warned not to show up to work that day. Others were not so lucky. It is one of the biggest tragedies that many of us have witnessed in this lifetime. 9/11 was the event that helped a lot of people begin waking up to the truth about what’s going on within our government, but how sad it is that so many innocent lives had to be lost in order for us to begin seeing the truth.

There is much evidence to suggest that these people did not die because of terrorism. There is likely a darker, much more sinister explanation behind it. Many experts and family members of the victims have wanted answers and further investigations into what really happened that day. To honor those who died, I believe it is our duty to keep questioning and not believe the lies we’ve been told.

Running Away from Happiness


Running away from happiness. That’s what I’ve been doing much of my life. Have you unconsciously been doing it, too? Sometimes we do it in such subtle ways that we don’t realize we’re doing it. For example, do you find yourself planning for the future and hoping for something better than this moment? Do you catch yourself thinking that if you stay persistent and patient, things will eventually get better in the future? Do you think that if you were able to change just one or two things about your life, you’d have a better shot at happiness? Why do we keep chasing after happiness, as if it’s something elusive that cannot be experienced right now? It’s funny how when we’re chasing after happiness, we’re actually running away from it because it’s available to us in each moment.

Prior to awakening, I was always caught up in planning for the future and could not understand why some people chose to make short-term goals only or how some people could be comfortable with postponing decisions for later. Little did I realize, my attempts to control and plan were signs that I was an anxious person who was lacked trust in myself. I definitely didn’t trust in anything bigger than myself, either, since I used to be an atheist.

It’s been about a year and a half since my awakening began, and I have much to learn. Maybe the biggest challenge for me to overcome at this point is learning how to let go. When I first came across those words “let go” last year, I rolled my eyes and wondered how I could do that. Let go and surrender? It didn’t make sense to me, but then one day I finally understood what all those spiritual teachers were talking about.

The year following my graduation, I felt extremely tired and burnt-out. The fatigue was debilitating at times, and I was frequently hard on myself for not knowing what to do with my future. I also felt guilty for needing a break to rest. After suffering day after day and never seeing any improvement, I decided to stop worrying about the future and accepted where I was. I didn’t know if it would help me feel better, but I knew that worrying hadn’t benefited me in any way. Around the time that I decided to let go was when a lot of my energy finally returned. I’m not saying letting go was the only thing that helped because I’m sure my diet and exercise helped a lot, too, but letting go certainly decreased my stress levels. Not only did I start feeling more energetic at that time, I felt a lot more happiness and inner peace. I finally understood that living moment to moment produced more clarity which enhanced my ability to make decisions and find some of the answers I had been seeking.

Unfortunately, I didn’t stick with the lesson I learned for very long. The “letting go” lasted maybe a month or two, but then I succumbed to my old anxious ways after being questioned by others what I was going to do with my future now that I was done with college and had obtained a master’s degree. I’m not blaming anyone for being curious and asking questions. I just realize that getting bombarded with certain questions can trigger a lot of insecurity and anxiety in me. I think there’s another lesson to learn in that.

I’ve tried to be easy on myself for slipping up and allowing my uncertainty regarding the future to cause stress and anxiety again. I believe it’s sometimes helpful and necessary to stop planning and withdraw from everything to work on ourselves, but our conditioning from society often leads us to feeling guilty/lazy/defective/pathetic for not having a plan and being as much of an active participant in the external world as we once were. We feel like it’s not enough that we’re living, learning, and growing in a way that makes sense only to us. We might know just how much we are growing on the inside, but to an outsider it may appear that we are stuck in complete stagnancy because this kind of growth cannot be observed externally.

In addition to feeling guilty or upset with ourselves for needing a break from all the hustle-and-bustle and stressful demands, I think it’s very common to want to rush through certain stages of the awakening process. When we’re feeling loving and joyful and grateful, it’s so easy to appreciate the process. But when the messy stuff shows up, like fatigue, ego death, lack of motivation, or the resurfacing of old, unhealed wounds, most of us want to rush through it, escape it, and avoid the pain. Sometimes we get sick of feeling like a caterpillar trapped in a cocoon. I know how frustrating it is to want to feel free and light like a butterfly, when I honestly feel more like a slimy slug who is trying to get things together, but I can’t quite find that solution I’ve been seeking. What I’ve learned is that suffering occurs when we do not want to accept where we are.

In order to let go, I have learned that it requires a change in perspective. Instead of thinking about what’s going to happen tomorrow or next month or next year, try to focus on right here right now and just accept it. I’ve decided that I need to continue making more of a conscious effort to live in THIS moment and embrace it fully because it is all that we ever have.

I like this quote by Paul Dunn:


Many spiritual teachers have talked about mindfulness and staying in the moment. This was a great message from Osho about living in the here and now. My favorite part was when he said, Live intensely and totally now because the next moment will be born out of this moment; and if you have lived it totally and joyously, you can be absolutely certain that the next moment will bring more blessings, more joy.

How to Handle Lightworker Burnout

This post is for those who resonate with lightworker traits. I briefly mentioned something called “lightworker burnout” in the post It’s a Challenging Time for Lightworkers. I imagine most people understand what career burnout looks like, and people who call themselves lightworkers can experience something sort of similar where they become so frustrated and exhausted by the world’s suffering that they eventually lose their passion and their ability to function well within society. Not everyone will experience this, but I wanted to discuss it because I’ve experienced these burnout symptoms in the past couple years and imagine that others out there are struggling with it right now, too.

I think the most common reasons why lightworker burnout occurs is because people either become overly concerned about the suffering of humanity and become unsure of where to direct their focus, or they try to help too many people at once because they feel a sense of urgency to help. Whether it’s career burnout or lightworker burnout, if you try to take on too much at once, you’ll surely burn-out because you’re not here to help everyone or to save the entire planet.

When I was reading about lightworker burnout, I came across some helpful advice written by Doreen Virtue. This is what she had to say:

“Lightworker Burnout” occurs in sensitive, caring people who feel overwhelmed by all the world issues that need healing attention. You don’t need to heal everyone and everything, however. Even the angels specialize in a specific focus. So, choose one or two issues that call to your soul. Then pray for the courage and guidance to make a positive difference in those areas.

Due to my desire to help others and to seek the truth about what’s going on in the world, I’ve had a tendency to carry the world’s weight on my shoulders. In recent years, I have uncovered a lot of dark, despicable stuff carried out by those in power that is being kept hidden from the public. After I overcame the shock of learning these things, I felt a combination of anger and sadness. It seems pretty normal to respond that way, but it becomes unhelpful if we get stuck in those emotions for too long.

I think it’s important to be aware of a few things: 1) the truth about what’s happening on this planet isn’t always pretty, 2) corruption exists at various levels and within all major systems and institutions, and 3) the news perpetuates feelings of fear and helplessness. If you tune into a news station, there is usually a barrage of negative stories being told while solutions are rarely discussed. We hear one bad story after another, and if we’re not careful, we’ll become paralyzed by the fear that something bad is always lurking around the corner. This can lead us into a victim mentality where we are looking for someone else to save us, which is a surefire way to lose our freedom and power.

To stay empowered, it is helpful to find a way of staying informed enough  to make smart decisions without falling victim to the fear-mongering tactics. Once you become aware of the motives and manipulations that the media carries out to keep us in a perpetual state of fear and inaction, you’ll probably want to watch less and less tv and seek other methods of staying informed. I prefer alternative news sources on the internet, but you have to be really careful with those, too, because any journalist or truth seeker has the potential to develop a doom-and-gloom attitude that can begin to infect your mind and spirit if you don’t stay mindful of how it is affecting you. Also, I wish it wasn’t a reality we had to face, but some of the most popular “truth seekers” are probably shills who have been paid to spread lies and perpetuate more fear.

If you’re a truth seeker like me, you might struggle to maintain your sanity while staying informed. That’s why it is so important to remain aware of your mental and emotional state. If you find that you keep getting pulled down the more that you learn about what’s going wrong, perhaps it’s time to switch your focus to the positive things that are happening right now and find a way to become part of the solution. I would never encourage people to ignore the problems we’re facing because complete avoidance doesn’t solve anything, but worrying about problems isn’t exactly productive, either.

Although I agree that many news sources focus too much on negativity and fear, one of the facts we ought to learn as adults is that we all have a choice in how emotionally invested we become in the stories we hear. We are each responsible for our level of awareness of what is happening, for the decisions we make, and for our mental and emotional state. Once you’ve learned how to discover the truth without becoming engulfed by fear, worry, or helplessness, you have completely empowered yourself. One way to do this is to focus on solutions to problems. If you hear about a problem and can’t think of anything you can do to improve the situation, move on instead of frantically running around in circles.


I think if we follow Doreen’s advice of narrowing our focus to one or two issues to help solve, it is possible to become change agents. Another point I would like to add is that instead of fighting against issues and ranting about how we need to stop this and stop that, it might be more beneficial to put our efforts into creating the new methods and systems that we want to see. In other words, instead of resisting the old, work toward creating something new. Help people see that there are other alternatives by building them yourself.

I’ll sum all this up with a few more tips on how to serve others without burning yourself out in the process:

  1. Work on healing yourself before you try healing others. We can’t be of much service to anyone if we’re in poor shape ourselves. This doesn’t mean you have to be perfect and free from all issues, but you need to maintain good health if you want to be effective and efficient at helping others.
  2. Strive for balance in all aspects of your life. Not only is it important to maintain the balance between staying informed and staying empowered, we also want to make sure we don’t spend so much time focused on a particular issue or cause that we ignore our own health and happiness.
  3.  Know if your passion and purpose derive from your ego or your heart. If you feel motivated to help others, ask yourself why you want to do so. Sometimes we say we want to help others, but when we’re truly honest with ourselves about why, we uncover other motives, such as a desire to live up to others’ expectations or to feel better about ourselves. It’s not totally horrible if your passion derives partly from your ego, but you’ll do yourself a big favor by listening to what your heart  is telling you to do.
  4. Know what raises your vibration and what lowers it. When we spend too much time around negative, toxic energies, we may end up suffering if we don’t know how to handle it. This is especially important to remember when it comes to following news stories, whether it’s online or on television. Pay attention to how you feel about the information you’re receiving and the person who is delivering the message. If it doesn’t inspire hope, you’re wasting your time and energy. To work toward building solutions, we want to stay focused on what keeps us going in a positive direction instead of getting trapped by fear. To learn more about vibrations and frequencies, here is a video on how to discern a frequency and one on how frequencies affect your life.
  5. Have patience and compassion towards those with lower levels of awareness. If you’re trying to help people who are not as knowledgeable or conscious as you are, it’s helpful not to rush the process or to get impatient with people if they are not ready to change or face certain truths. For example, if you’re trying to teach someone how to eat healthier, help them find ways to take baby steps instead of pressuring them to adopt the habits of a health nut. You’ll drive yourself crazy if expect everyone to make dramatic changes across the span of a day, a week, or even a month. Do you typically make dramatic changes overnight? Remind yourself that each person grows and changes at their own pace.
  6. Be a guide instead of a “people fixer.” Most of us who have a strong desire to help probably have a deep desire to fix people, but that’s probably not the role we should play. No one is perfect, so it’s futile trying to fix anyone. A healthier approach might be to view ourselves as guides and teachers who are sharing our skills, talents, and knowledge to help others more easily maneuver their way down their path. We should avoid rescuing people from their problems so they can learn lessons and grow on their own. Instead of being rescuers, we can be like lighthouses guiding and assisting others through the darkness.
  7. A small victory can be a huge victory. It may not be possible to help every person we encounter, but all the small successes can lead to something bigger. Once you’ve helped someone, they might be motivated to help others or begin spreading the information they’ve learned to their family and friends, which could benefit someone they know. Keep in mind that every time you try to teach others what you have learned, you might be planting the seed that is going to help someone grow.
  8. Accept that you won’t always succeed. Following your heart and your dreams sometimes requires you to step outside the box. When you find the courage to step outside the box and do something different from what everyone else is doing, there is always the risk of failure. Some people might not understand what you’re doing. Others might intentionally target you and try to pull you down because your efforts are seen as a threat to the old, failing systems that they are desperately trying to maintain for as long as they can. Don’t let the fear of failure or a few stumbling blocks stop you from fulfilling your mission. When your intuition tells you you’re on the right path, keep going. You will learn and grow by taking these risks.

If you’ve been dealing with burnout lately, I hope some of the suggestions above will help you and inspire you to keep shining your light. For those who have experienced burnout, what do you think is the best way to cope with it?


Liebster Award

liesbster2Happy September, everyone! I’m flattered that I recently received a nomination for an award on my new blog. I was nominated by Brandi at Destination Enlightenment for the Liebster Award. She blogged about it here. Brandi has an excellent blog focused on the topics of spirituality and personal growth, so definitely check out some of her posts soon. Thanks again for nominating me, Brandi!

Here are the rules:

  1. Make a post thanking and linking the person who nominated you.
    Include the Liebster Award sticker in the post too.
  2. Nominate 5 -10 other bloggers who you feel are worthy of this award. Let them know they have been nominated by commenting on one of their posts. You can also nominate the person who nominated you.
  3. Ensure all of these bloggers have less than 200 followers.
  4. Answer the eleven questions asked to you by the person who nominated you, and make eleven questions of your own for your nominees or you may use the same questions.
  5. Lastly, COPY these rules in your post.

The bloggers whom I nominate and encourage you all to follow, if you aren’t already, are:
Spiritual Awakening
Empath Blues
The Invitation
Elemental Fraction

The 11 questions are:

1.If you could meet one famous person, who would it be?

It took me a little while to think of someone, but then I realized how awesome it would be to have a conversation with David Icke, one of the biggest conspiracy theorists. Some people say he’s crazy and delusional. Others accuse him of being a fraud or say he’s in the illuminati. Whatever the truth is, the man has shared a lot of fascinating ideas about consciousness and human evolution that I’ve enjoyed.

2. What is the simplest thing that makes you smile?

I love those moments when my cats show love and affection by cuddling together or grooming each other. It is the sweetest thing.

3. What is your favorite season and why?

I love both spring and summer because of the bright sunshine and warm weather. Spring might be slightly more exciting to me because the temps are just starting to rise, and I know I will have plenty more months ahead of warm, sunny weather to enjoy outdoors.

4. What is your all time favorite food?

I love a good seafood and pasta dish. Or to go with something even simpler than that, I’ve always loved strawberries.

5. What song gets you pumped?

I’m struggling with this one since a lot of the music I listen to is relaxing and dreamy or atmospheric/ambient. When I want to get up and moving, though, I like to put on some classic disco hits. “Born to Be Alive” by Patrick Hernandez is one that never fails.

6. What was the most inspiring book you have ever read?

One book that led to a huge breakthrough for me was the popular self-help book “Women Who Love Too Much” by Robin Norwood. I was only 23 at the time and didn’t have much relationship experience, but that book helped me realize the mistakes and traps I had fallen into already that were preventing me from finding a decent partner. After reading it, my attitude about men completely shifted and I was inspired to love myself before anyone else. Less than six months later, I ended up meeting my current boyfriend whom I consider one of my soulmates.

7. Any other interests other than writing/blogging?

Being outdoors and relaxing in nature, reading, researching natural/alternative health topics, watching documentaries, shopping at thrifts stores and flea markets, having in-depth conversations with like-minded souls about spirituality, conspiracy theories, and life in general

8. Do you believe in love at first sight?

I don’t know…maybe. I definitely believe in the idea of soulmates. I think it’s possible to meet someone and instantly feel a level of comfort and familiarity toward them that is different from pure physical attraction to someone. Based on my own experience, I know it’s possible to experience a powerful, unexplainable connection to someone during the first or second date that is a strong indication that this person will play a profound role in your life.

9. Are you multi lingual or do you know parts of another language?

I remember a teeny bit of Spanish that I learned throughout elementary school and college.

10. Who do you look up to or who inspires you?

I’m inspired by my mother’s ability to maintain a kind, loving heart after experiencing many disappointments and traumas in her life. Some people quite easily become bitter and self-centered after enduring hardships, but my mother still remains a loving woman who wants to help others when it’s possible. I think it takes a lot more strength to remain sensitive and kind toward others when you’re in pain yourself than it does to turn cold and take out your suffering on others.

11. What do you enjoy most about blogging?

The process of organizing my thoughts and putting them up on the screen often helps me better understand myself or a situation I am currently facing. By writing for others, I usually help myself. I also really enjoy receiving comments from bloggers and readers who can relate to things I share because it helps me feel less alone. Sometimes I fall into the trap of feeling like a lot of people don’t understand what I am going through, so here’s a thank you to all the bloggers and readers who’ve helped me feel supported and understood.

Thank you everyone for reading. For anyone who decides to participate, I look forward to reading your answers.